vanity is my favourite sin
Since I started working, I have not been taking very good care of myself, in terms of physical wellness that is. I've been breaking out, gaining weight - the whole nine yards that make me look haggard/beaten up and older than I actually am. My self confidence has gone down the drain. So for the sake of vanity, I made a visit to a dermatologist at the Damansara Specialist Hospital. I had wanted to visit LP Tan in Tmn Tun as I've been to her way back in 2004 when I had a major breakout after going to the States - but she was closed on weekends. So I guess Dr. Saadiah from UKM would make do for this time. Waiting to go see her was a pain - I had to sit in a two hour wait, before seeing her for a mere 10 min consultation. I feel scammed for paying RM80 for that 10 min conversation. That's not including the drugs yet.
DAMN. I should have become a doctor.
So, anyway, told her about my change of environment and lifestyle, ding dong ding dong, she was going to prescribe a strong medication that will have my skin cleared in no time, in hopes to boost my self esteem a notch. I have just been given none other than Isotretinoin, more widely known as Roaccutane in layman's term (and in addition to Retin-A, a topical acne medication). Isotretinoin is an oral medication that helps to prevent severe acne problems. To put in simply on how it works, it dries up the oil glands in our skin and blocks the formation of sebum or the white heads we find in our face, thus prevent acne buildup.
Miracle at work, but has significant side effects. Boy, I am scared. On the back of the pills, it explicitly warns against pregnancy during the course of medication as it causes malformation to the fetus. The medication will also cause severe dryness to skin, crack lips, joint aches, nosebleeds, sun sensitivity, develop an increase in blood cholesterol and what I'm afraid most, depression. I'm already in a distressing mood swing syndrome and this is only going to add to my unpleasant temperament!! So for the next 30 days or so, or for however long this treatment is going take, I foresee my transformation of personality to an evil bitch. Muahaha. I apologize in advance if I happen brush you off with signs of this distemper. It is the pills doing. :)
So, I'm already in day 2 of this medication, my back's aching and I feel restless. omg the side effects..:(
“There are no grades of vanity, there are only grades of ability in concealing it”
-Mark Twain
DAMN. I should have become a doctor.
So, anyway, told her about my change of environment and lifestyle, ding dong ding dong, she was going to prescribe a strong medication that will have my skin cleared in no time, in hopes to boost my self esteem a notch. I have just been given none other than Isotretinoin, more widely known as Roaccutane in layman's term (and in addition to Retin-A, a topical acne medication). Isotretinoin is an oral medication that helps to prevent severe acne problems. To put in simply on how it works, it dries up the oil glands in our skin and blocks the formation of sebum or the white heads we find in our face, thus prevent acne buildup.
Miracle at work, but has significant side effects. Boy, I am scared. On the back of the pills, it explicitly warns against pregnancy during the course of medication as it causes malformation to the fetus. The medication will also cause severe dryness to skin, crack lips, joint aches, nosebleeds, sun sensitivity, develop an increase in blood cholesterol and what I'm afraid most, depression. I'm already in a distressing mood swing syndrome and this is only going to add to my unpleasant temperament!! So for the next 30 days or so, or for however long this treatment is going take, I foresee my transformation of personality to an evil bitch. Muahaha. I apologize in advance if I happen brush you off with signs of this distemper. It is the pills doing. :)
So, I'm already in day 2 of this medication, my back's aching and I feel restless. omg the side effects..:(
“There are no grades of vanity, there are only grades of ability in concealing it”
-Mark Twain
Labels: daily musings
posted by Agnes Y at 20:33
2 Comments:
try this
http://www.proactiv.com/
works like a charm.
I will not pretend that looks don't matter, nor will I suggest that self-improvement isn't a good thing. But I assure you there is nothing more attractive and sexy than self-confidence.
You have to love yourself before others will truly love you. If you have low self-esteem, there are predators who will seek to exploit that. They will initially seem like they 'love you for who you are' but they are merely acting on their own lack of self-confidence or bullying nature.
Self-love is purely a matter of choice. When you love yourself, you improve yourself for YOU, not for others.
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